Tuesday, June 26, 2007

"blues in dallas," from all hail west texas

this post is dedicated to james, whose toilet overflowed today.

i was about to take on "source decay," which is about distance and having your heart ripped out of your chest and the unbearable weight of nostalgia and all that stuff, but james called.

lately, some things have been occurring to me. cosmic things. i can't share them all here, but i'm pretty sure they have a lot to do with the fact that last summer i had a girlfriend with an air conditioner, and this summer i have neither, so i get to enjoy the conciliatory solace of asceticism (read: sexlessness) and am probably dehydrated to the point of shamanic visions.

there's been a lot of endgame thinking, too, which is what "blues in dallas" is about. waiting at the gates of heaven for someone to show up. i was pretty sure i knew who i'd be waiting for, but in the past few months, my list has changed. (my financial investment service of choice had to verify my identity and asked "where did you meet your spouse?", which was one of my secret questions even though i don't have a spouse. for a second i forgot who he might've been referring to. or, maybe, i was ashamed for being so dumb as to think of that person that way.)

james, your toilet overflown, i think i would reasonably kill some time for you at the gates of heaven. i mean, these things change, don't they? i remember when you went through your white-shoe all-time-vacation phase--that was annoying, james. since then, denim shirt, belly out, there's been nothing but good feeling. if i were a praying man, i might for you.

2 comments:

kelly said...

How's your index?

Is it okay to be interested in your personal finances along with your Mountain Goats insights?

I started a mutual fund. A retirement fund mutual fund.

—Adult?

mp said...

the index is doing okay, i guess. i mean, i took some money out of it to buy that painting. i'm not sure how being a 24-year-old investor squares with liking the mountain goats, but hey, oh well. (also, you called them 'insights'--thanks.)

and yeah, i started a retirement fund this year too. i consider it rainy-day money. i guess that's old-folks of me. oh well.